Cursed by Birth

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I’m cursed by birth, don’t you see?

I never asked to be me.

I never asked to be birthed.

I never asked to grow.

I never asked to die.

It doesn’t matter, because once you’re born you’re destined for death.

That’s the only consistency I see.

I didn’t ask for any of this, neither did you.

It’s kind of sad to see what this world has become; by things that start like the choice of  birthing.

A woman has a right to choose, but the baby has no say.

And anyway it doesn’t matter if it’s alive or aborted with no choice.

We do have a choice within this realm of life we see.

We can have the choice to die by our hands, or by other hands.

But I wouldn’t consider that a choice.

We could better ourselves overtime, and kill the things we hate about ourselves.

Just being in a new way a sense of a new life.

Or we could find some meaning  into this life.

Or we can just sell plants in the gardening section at Home Depot. If there isn’t a point in life why should we overthink it?

For some reason…

For some people like myself I like to self deprecate.

I don’t really mind doing it; it has a sense of a settling feeling.

Maybe it’s because I don’t know who I am.

Just like I don’t know the meaning behind this poem.

People Watching

Sad faces surpass me.

They go on a plane to who knows where?

Mostly vendors.

I have grown to see a lot of them.

Always travelling.

Sounds fun.

But that light.

That light you can see in someones eyes..?

Has been blown out.

There is not enough free miles to rekindle that light.

Always in the air.

Thousands of miles away from family they grow old.

And distant.

Till they don’t even know who they live with  anymore.

Money controls some people’s actions.

Later down the road…

They get laid off.

All the whiskey in the world won’t fix this mistake.

Feral

Everyone is feral until someone loves them.

Villans.

Thoughts pondered in the middle of the night.
I think the older we get the more lose our actions or thoughts become.
Things you could never imagine doing two years ago you are doing them now.
Something you thought was completely wrong then.  Is more seemingly okay now.
This continues on the longer you live…
Well…

Until you do not know who you are anymore.
And I think that’s why Harvey Dent’s quote hits us so hard.
It’s relatable.
“You Either Die A Hero, Or You Live Long Enough To See Yourself Become The Villain“

And we all see this is some way or another in  middle of the night. Alone. With our thoughts.

Created Security

I put up a wall to feel safe.

Four corners built with bricks.

Guaranteed to weather a storm.

An earthquake emerged once.

No crack in this foundation.

As time past this space I created started to close in.

The oxygen is running out.

I scream for help…

But alas no-one can hear me.

I look for a door.

There isn’t one.

I didn’t make one.

The wall didn’t protect me from anything.

It made it worse.

Because the danger was never the outside world it was me.

The Reason

There’s a reason inside all of us other than the inevitable death that is causing us to die slowly.

A person?

An addiction?

Love?

Other?

We can’t shake it because if we did we would lose apart of us that we found within that reason.

Loving Someone

The hardest thing I ever did is love.

Not in love but the fact of love in general.

For the good the bad you love them no matter what.

All those painful choices they make it affects you.

They hurt you hurt.

They are happy you are happy.

They struggle you struggle.

It’s easier to become numb than to love.

Because we know in the end being numb hurts less than the emotional rollercoaster you are on loving someone.

Saving the World

Saving the world doesn’t vary by who many people you help. Or taking down one big evil person. Saving the world is when you can save an individual against themself. Saving in individual in general for whatever purpose. When you save an individual you save them in their world. Which means you have saved the world. And that can make all the difference. Remember that.

Untitled.

A balcony screams. A man falls down. Maybe it was the alcohol helping him fight his fears. Liquid courage runs in his bloodstream. Or maybe just maybe the liquor in his system showed that he couldn’t avoid his fears. Another love one weeps tonight.

Nevermore.

Nevermore screams into my soul.

An adverb to describe the lack of you.

In a not as dark way as the great Poe said.